I knew today was going to be tough. After being so busy yesterday and having such a good day I know that today would feel flat. What I didn't expect was this wave of sadness and loneliness. The drive to work was tough and then I had to sit in the car park for 15 minutes to pull myself together. Then when I came in to the office I came in to flowers from my husband. He has not once, in 13 years bought me flowers. He's really trying, trying to show me he can change and it can be different.
I need to stop crying and think. I was so sure, so positive.
Today is not a good day.