Tunnel Vision

Just because I get why I'm not in the tunnel right now - doesn't mean I have to like it.

Things I do now.....

......I live alone.

So if you follow my blog or know me you will know that I am now living alone - this is really only the first time in my life I have truly lived alone.  I have lived alone during the week before but never really had my own place.  Whilst its taking a bit of getting used to I have to admit I love it.

I am doing things that make me happy and that I like.  For example I have diptyque candles and light them most days, I cook and eat fish, I watch Glee in the lounge on the big TV, I have fresh flowers and today I stepped it up a gear.

Before today the only DVDs I owned here were Mad Men Seasons 1-3 and the complete Sex In the City (I'm a 38 year old woman what did you expect), but today i have bought a number of DVDs that I would never have been allowed time to watch at home.  I now own The Notebook, Nine, Sunset Boulevard, Sweet Charity, The King & I, South Pacific, Oklahoma, The Pajama Game, Easter Parade, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Roman Holiday, Annie Get Your Gun, Fame (the original) & Some Like it Hot.

I have a pork belly roasting, a tub of half baked and a bottle of sauvignon blanc........I should be ironing but may not get round to it, I mean it can wait can't it!

Happy Sunday.

Waking up naturally

This morning I woke without the alarm, it was about quarter to 7.  I felt so much better waking naturally and was able to get up easily and get on with my day.

Why is it that on Saturday when I have time and space for a lie in I am up and awake but during the week I am in danger of wearing out the snooze button.

I need to work on this.

Today we wear is Red for Heart Awareness Month

I'd rather be kissing........

Productive Day

I had a busy day today but for a change got loads done.

No meetings at all at work meant I was able to crack on with my to do list which is back on on track and I took the opportunity to leave at sensible o'clock and came home and made a skirt and some sausage roles.  Watched Being Human on iPlayer and Glee.  All in all a very productive day.

I am keeping myself busy to help keep my mind off the things I miss.  Right now I miss my home, CP, my stuff, The American, football, exercise/yoga and feeling like I am in charge (not necessarily in that order).

I'm not in charge or control, I am not the one calling the shots or even holding a casting vote.  So I need to relax, go with the flow see where things go and what life brings.  But as we all know I'm rubbish without a list or a plan.  Maybe this will be the new me...........maybe!

For now The American makes me feel a bit like this:

I just hate having to wait for him to call my name.

Things I would like in 2011

It will be worth it

Yes things are tough sometimes but you know what - there is light.  Sometimes it's dim and distant and other times so bright I can feel it's warmth.

I know that there will be more dark then light for a little bit, but you know what it's coming and it will get better, easier.

The optimist is returning, I like her she smiles, laughs, believes in good.

Wise Words

Makes Sense!

found here http://niamhy.tumblr.com/post/3257564140

Lonely

I used to love being alone, having time to myself, space to just be.  I seem to have lost the ability to be alone now - now I am not alone I am lonely.

A list for boys of things girls like......

So KBW and I are having a Friday night girls night and it's time to make some lists (yes you know who you are that started the list writing...).

So we thought we'd start with  A List For Boys of Things Girls Like - what with it being Valentines and all it may be of some use.

So here goes, lets start simple

Flowers

Antique Rose Hat Box from The Real Flower Company

Yes I know it may be old hat and that it's been done before but we really like flowers - but seriously garage flowers NO no no no not even for your Mum. KBW prefers all the same no mixed bouquets , a massive bunch of either Lilies, Roses, Peonies, Tulips etc.  PCB is open to a nice hand tied bouquet BUT in tonal shades not loads of brights or fakes. And boy NEVER red & white (only for a funeral and even then if you must only roses).  If in doubt this is the place to shop http://www.realflowers.co.uk/

Chocolate

Whilst Dairy Milk has it's place when buying a gift for some one you love (or who's pants you want to get inside) it's not the answer.  The answer, young Jedi's according to KBW, is Pink Champagne Truffles from Charbonnel et Walker:

Me I'm more of a Rococo gal, Chicchi de Cafe are my fave but look at this fab choice for Valentines (Hot Lips Chili truffles and red lips):

Underwear

Ok - this is a lot about personal style.  KBW and I have very different styles (and body shapes) so we'll give you both of our recommendations BUT boys, please....never ever Ann Summer - it's itchy scratchy and wrong wrong wrong.

KBW first :  Myla, Myla Myla and if you're feeling particularly flush La Perla Black Label (but you may need a 2nd mortgage):

Myla (www.myla.com)

La Perla (www.laperla.com)

and now PCB:  Well I love both of KBWs choice but I'm a bit more of a What Katie Did gal:

Most importantly get the size right - just sneak in her drawer when she's out or downstairs or something and check the size of her favourite undies - you can't go wrong.

Jewelry

Diamonds - nuff said......

No seriously - girls love diamonds but if you're looking for something a little more in budget I suggest either Links of London (and right now they have a really cute Fortune Teller to down load) or Wright & Teague......or look on their sites and go and get something similar:

Links of London 20/20 collection

Wright & Teague Gala Bangles

So that's the obvious out of the way!

So what else do girls like, well it depends on the girl so we'll be back with our individual views.

I've Been Loving You Too Long - Otis Redding

Comfort Food

Sometimes when things seem really bad finding a portion of your Mum's mince & onion gravy in the freezer really does make the world seem a better place.

Homecoming

After over a week away, too many airports and too many gins I am home.

I am tired, but woke at 3.30 as my body has no fraking clue what time it is.  Sure I'll fly away for the weekend hours after landing back from the US....different airport you say, sure no problem.  I'll just drive for two hours after landing from Philly rather than get a car back to my nice comfortable home.

I've returned home to a tidy, cold but empty fridge place.  The garage has run out of milk but my brother was coming so I needed to get home.  I had gin all was fine.

So here I am 5.30am, it's cold and my various bags and cases are still in the car.  I can't get into my room to turn the heating on early as my brother is in there and I have no milk so can't make tea.

I am jet lagged, a little hungover and cold.

First day in the office for over a week today - wonder what joys are in store, couldn't face turning the crackberry on when I got back yesterday so may just play it by ear and wing the first few hours (to be fair this wouldn't be the first time).

But can't get ready and get in early as brother is in my room where my black dresses are kept.   I could get the bags out of the car - is it still -2.5 out there?

Coffee it is then - if only to have something warm to hold to take the chill off.